i just wanted to love you

i just wanted
to love you
to take care of you as you asked me to
i wanted to rehab you if that had been necessary
i am so naive
i didn't know you drank
i didn't know you lied
i didn't know you were the guy you warned me about
now
i am in this mess
and i look and see we have to gather the wounded from this battlefield called love
we have to clean the wounds and heal them

i just wanted to make you feel better but grow in the same time. I didn't know how long you need to feel good before you can start walking again. I didn't know anything but that you loved me. with all your heart.
and then you say, just give me a break, how comes you always know how to rub me the wrong way
now i am not here to treat you with candy
now i am here to teach you a lesson
but it hurts and i cry because i really just wanted to fucking love you
i just wanted to make you feel better
and there you are saying
the last four and half past months I couldn't rest, that's why..
I say, what, that you can't be with me?
I really tried hard man. I really did. Fuck.
Then you say, I apologize, I am so sorry, I wasn't a good boyfriend
and I cringe inside and I say but that's not the point
the point is that I loved you so much and that I still do
and still care.
If you know how to take care of yourself
if you can get a rest where you are now
i maybe just shouldn't talk to you anymore

it's so terrible to be a drag to the person you love most.