half half

first show, outside, but yeah, feeling wasn't as great. struggled a little but my sister came and I saw her face glow in the dark. made me nervous kind of. but happy.
you weren't there, and i think: stay lady stay, as long as the night is still ahead
but then skunk anansie kicks in and I wonder whether you are happy now, with her. yes.
i hope you're feeling happy now because i do
today two people asked me what happened
'you look so happy, what's the secret' my sister's friend at third street promenade asked me.
i contemplated the question for a couple of seconds.
then i said
and i was surprised by my own answer:
'i just got over a four month heart break. it feels good to be happy now'
'oh i am sorry' he said but that was just something you say, you know!
you didn't come to the show, and that's ok. i was so focused on my sister. i was strangely proud that she came. it really meant something to me you know!
then max told me out of the blue about his music and what's happening and i said spontaneously that i want to manage him. man, who knows! i am sure as hell a number one fan of his incredibly sexy voice. Klodi wanted his number immediately when she first heard him.
whatever. she didn't come either. emeralda b-z thought: maybe she picked him up and surprises me with him!~ but emeralda A was just happy. I got so many compliments, oh god. I mean, hey, i wasn't that great. But they were drunk so let them think what they want. I knew that my sister was the only one who would hear the flaws of my flute playing. she did. and she laughs and makes crazy plans to kidnap my rich great great aunt to get money;
i gotta go now
one more cup of coffee before i go!