everything seems to take so long

I can't wait until it's undone.

the good news is, that I live
the bad, that living ain't easy
the good news is that i am somewhat amazing
the bad, that i am nothing like my amazing sisters
just, so much alike this other one
who's flaws I abhorr
who's ways make me cringe inside like a bad stomach cramp
because they are my own

tonight depression lingers in the air when you raise your head to sniff.
but the clouds aren't that heavy yet. no rain tonight for me.
lessons learned, maybe.

first: you are really alone. no one to rely on, ever. it's a nice bonus to have someone who could protect or care for you. but it is no guarantee for him to really be there when you think you need him the most.
so i deal with it. alone. and it is okay. it feels like right after an accident when the glas lies around you in splinters and the red ambulance and the blue police lights vibrate in your bones.

second: when expectations roar too high you fall so low. don't mix dreams with expectations. don't let expecations get into your way.

third: don't say yes to what you don't know

fourth: be yourself not someone

Growing....don't fall, don't fall, don't fall again little girl, move on

Everything just seems to take so long