nobody will ever know

but it doesn´t matter you stumble
and you may fall
there are many ways to fail
i feel sufficiently ridiculous
admitted
upside down
frowning at my own rules and insights
that rid me of intimacy
so i sit and stare into this screen
trying to catch some of this warm room
trying to be now and not yesterday
the real things that mattered are long gone
little things suffice now
to make me sad