there is no one or place really to off-load this blue bulk of sad and not right.
i understand how kids can make a difference, somehow, if i had a girl that would snuggle herself into my arms so i can have a purpose and read a god-damn children book to her, or even better, make a story up.
sad engulfs my mind and it's definitely pms but i'm scared it might also be the depression that is coming back and the acupuncturist's prediction that i'm on my way into a depression is true.
it's funny because sometimes we think something big has to change for us to feel alive again but perhaps it's the small things, like going dancing finally. but here i am procrastinating my thesis so i can't go dancing. it's so lame.
oh no there are positive thoughts now crawling into my mind. for example: what are the things i love and they are RIGHT here. i can just take it if i want it.
i understand how kids can make a difference, somehow, if i had a girl that would snuggle herself into my arms so i can have a purpose and read a god-damn children book to her, or even better, make a story up.
sad engulfs my mind and it's definitely pms but i'm scared it might also be the depression that is coming back and the acupuncturist's prediction that i'm on my way into a depression is true.
it's funny because sometimes we think something big has to change for us to feel alive again but perhaps it's the small things, like going dancing finally. but here i am procrastinating my thesis so i can't go dancing. it's so lame.
oh no there are positive thoughts now crawling into my mind. for example: what are the things i love and they are RIGHT here. i can just take it if i want it.
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Some kinda blue, like the song goes. bless
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