FUCK I FREAKED OUT
i just lost it.
and now i roll around on the dirty floor and just can't stop beating the dust out of it with my flat hand because i am so devastatedly mad at myself. i fucking cry because i am so mad. i fucking love him man and i just lost it. i just did exactly what i MUST NOT DO. i freaked out on him. that's what he CANT take. i know it. i know it. just because he sounds better and happier it doesn't mean i can blow his brains out to just throw him back into this abyss.
i FUKCING HATE MYSELF
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STOP!
Each of us has to do what we have to do, and if you had to freak the fuck out, so be it.
Are you Mother Theresa? Are you a saint, an angel, something more powerful than the mortal you were born as?
We all have to vent and let it out. You did. There is no shame to be had. You did what YOU had to do.
So does he, you know.
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