You need closure. That's why it keeps coming back to haunt you.
She says.
I read a post called Concha Buika and see how I can find back so I can talk to my former Self. I see pictures at my former workplace. I looked so cute, so young, so innocent, so loving. His lips as familiar and beautiful as I remembered. With that smile. And he never took off his glasses.
We are all in our 30s now.
It is really really time to move on.
Kali says that when he last saw me he felt he didn't know me. He said I was broken. That was after the accident, only two years after. Death changes you, man.
Now, he says, you are back to how I knew you. Same vitality and joy. I am glad to hear it.
But I feel so different now. It is all about the work and how to dive deeper and reach higher. How to better navigate this life.
Sao Paulo is waiting.
I feel like I want to connect with my future Self much more than I want to connect with my former Self. G, who loved D. It was innocent and sweet and dramatic but it really is over now and it wouldn't have allowed me to create the life I want to. Can you accept that? Even a relationship with G wouldn't be the right thing. You are meant to move. And you want that. You want to focus on the work. On the beauty that can be created. You want to enjoy and love life. You want to dive. You want to build things. You can allow love.
Is it possible to look at myself with kind and forgiving eyes? At my former Self? Can I say, G, it is so beautiful that you loved so deeply. That you cared so much. I am sorry you had to to endure such a heart break. The mystical aspects of it drew you in so far. It was real. It is good that you let that go now. Do you really want to know how he is doing? \\ Because maybe not.
She says.
I read a post called Concha Buika and see how I can find back so I can talk to my former Self. I see pictures at my former workplace. I looked so cute, so young, so innocent, so loving. His lips as familiar and beautiful as I remembered. With that smile. And he never took off his glasses.
We are all in our 30s now.
It is really really time to move on.
Kali says that when he last saw me he felt he didn't know me. He said I was broken. That was after the accident, only two years after. Death changes you, man.
Now, he says, you are back to how I knew you. Same vitality and joy. I am glad to hear it.
But I feel so different now. It is all about the work and how to dive deeper and reach higher. How to better navigate this life.
Sao Paulo is waiting.
I feel like I want to connect with my future Self much more than I want to connect with my former Self. G, who loved D. It was innocent and sweet and dramatic but it really is over now and it wouldn't have allowed me to create the life I want to. Can you accept that? Even a relationship with G wouldn't be the right thing. You are meant to move. And you want that. You want to focus on the work. On the beauty that can be created. You want to enjoy and love life. You want to dive. You want to build things. You can allow love.
Is it possible to look at myself with kind and forgiving eyes? At my former Self? Can I say, G, it is so beautiful that you loved so deeply. That you cared so much. I am sorry you had to to endure such a heart break. The mystical aspects of it drew you in so far. It was real. It is good that you let that go now. Do you really want to know how he is doing? \\ Because maybe not.
