flirt

innocence like lavender scents wafting through the air...this is how i like my days, i hear your voice faint like a whisper, and the windy sunny days echo reverberate through my whole being. it was so wonderful. ah, yes, so deliciously great and indescribably overwhelming to know you.

now there is a new day and slowly the veil of sorrow and pain and suffering lifts itself: it is life and life only.
like you I would wonder how it is possible that someone can love so hard and so much and then move on.
but i think i can. i have answered the question before with yes or no: yes i want to work it out, no i don't think you are the one. probably, who knows. but now i don't need drama anymore in my life. i honestly think that if you asked me back in two months that i wouldn't want to. i want you, i want you in my life, i want your love, i want to love you, but no, i don't think we could get back at this point. too much has happened. it's a great loss, but it wouldn't be right. you gotta move on. we both have to learn so much and it is that we don't have the same lifelessons to learn.

he is so different from you, even younger, but i had a wonderful little encounter in the alley today, like a little innocent wonderful flirt, even just for the sake of a fun friendship. it just, was like balm on my soul that someone showed me how he likes me, how he noted to his friend how funny and adorable i am, for no real reason though. and how he shook his head slightly and shrugged his shoulders when I mentioned how gorgeous Amanda is. She is like the most obvious person to be gorgeous but he denied it in front of me because i was there... now that was freaking sweet! ah, oh well, just a tactic says the critic but I laugh in the wind and enjoy a little smile, thrown into my direction... it is time... time... and funny how you called me in the middle of this conversation... your sensitivity still picks up those vibes, right? and yes, don't bother me with girls that you once knew or that you know and nothing like that. let's not bother each other anymore with that. only and strictly good talking now!
i can't wait to hear what you have to say, why you wanted to talk to me tonight. i guess you want to explain me something important. and i think, i think, we have to move on.