so tonight that i might see

see, music still puts me in that place
that place of understanding. understanding where we came from and where we were going to. how it did matter, even if not deep or far. it was worth that song. it was worth that moment. it was worth that love, maybe, maybe.
there is so much more and we both know that. there will be a day that we unpack and unwrap and will shine some light on it again so that we might see.
see, beneath that dust that will have gathered by then. the smells and sounds and reflections. we will see, that things we said and did mattered all the way. penetrating through everything into the now, somewhere then, in the future.
this is nothing brilliant or special but it is magic. magic, so obvious, so blatantly obvious that nobody else will see. it will be in disguise by it s utter normalcy.
and i will rise above it all with you and i will see. i will see that love mattered. and maybe one day, in a future now, i will read this and smile and think back and know that this was wishful thinking but now, now, now, it is all clear.

i love you
dear.