she got the blues

caught up in the struggle
to be alright
to do what it takes
to sleep at night

she got the blues
she used to give great advice
we all have it in us
just not just right now
maybe later

things I regret
like a treasure chest
full of glory
sunken
in silence
can't regret no more
you gotta give and take
right now
not later

all these mornings i didn't get up
didn't see nor look out there
tangled up in his arms in silence
changed it for a world in here
seeing, feeling, thinking through
his beloved heart beat
his holding me
so precious
and
his breath
like the ocean
rolling in and out
of my soul
teaching me love
in a language that doesn't know words
or any kind of loud infiltrations
evaluations or judgemets or
the better of anything
no cold hard shapes or forms
just a flower blossoming
singing in color
in a silence that teaches nothing
and all

can't regret
all the losses that occured
in an other world
you gotta take
and give
as long as it is
not just a dream
not longing
or yearning
anymore

she is scared
got a now to lose
see,
it's a trade baby
for a space
to long
to yearn
all over again